It feels like the universe is throwing all the obstacles at me lately.

I find myself constantly saying things like "I'll come out stronger in the end" or "these things are here to challenge us" or "this too shall pass".

But what if they don't.

It's been a long while since I last wrote here.

Reading back upon the posts from last Summer touched a nerve. It hit me straight in the chest. My mind wondering whether things would be different today if things went in a different direction then.

But.

I cannot think of the what ifs, as I ride this stormy rollercoaster of real high highs and real low lows. Because today is where I am. And the days are long and the evenings are lonely. And the struggle is a mountain I am climbing.

But.

After the steep becomes the ease, the gentle stroll down or perhaps even a soft floaty parachute ride.

Things will be good again.

A stay at my favourite place was so necessary. My body was begging me to get rest and my mind was in need of some quiet. Gifting myself a trip back to my favourite place, and to see my mother was the very best decision. All around.

I think, I will be grateful for the opportunity for a long while yet.