It is nice. To be able to sit and read, sip coffee first thing in the morning.

Without reaching for my phone.

I tend to do this to fill a void.

A loneliness, a distraction.

I have been enjoying not replying to messages straight away, if my head isn't up to it.

Because, I realise, the background noise tends to be noisier than the main stage.

And the main stage is something I really need to be focusing on. Being present in.

But of course the whole scene ultimately needs my attention.

Whether that means consciously making people wait for a reply, purely to ease my pressure. We don't owe anything to anyone. We don't need to always be accessible. We don't need to always be available.

And the importance is reminding myself of that.